On Discomfort

I've always stayed in my comfort zone. I never did anything hard, out of some combination of fear and laziness. I never liked that about myself, but it took me a long time to do anything about it. I basically spent the first twenty-five years of my life working up the nerve to do anything interesting.

Almost every decision I've made in the last year (Workaway, taking up dance) has been a direct assault on my lack of confidence. This is a theme for me. Pretty much every real decision I've made I've made out of a desire to change something I don't like about myself. And I have to say, I'm pretty happy with the person I've become in the last two years. He's much more confident than he used to be. He's friendly. He's learned, somewhat, how to set the tone of an interaction. He's learned to become aware of other people.